Getting put out to getting the World; You gotta GROW
GROW Greatness Reached over Oppression through Wisdom
“Something happened along the way and yesterday is all we have”
Even as I looked around my house and all of my Beautiful furniture, knick knacks and and precious items I had collected over the years, it was still just stuff and I would soon be parting with it
for the owner of the house Brian and I were renting in Granite City told me she was going with the one who made the most money, that was Brian at the time
So my children and I were forced to leave the house; He had already took all three cars so I just left him the house with everything in it
We packed what we could and moved in with a friend I also thought I knew
13 years of friendship meant nothing, I bought food, paid rent it still was no good
My marriage over, Brian had successfully pushed family members from my life, ostracized, I leaned on this person, my friend Courtland of 13 years but sadly I didn’t know him either
He would “jokingly” pull a gun out in n front of me cocking and spinning it and laughing as I ran out of the room
He proceeded to evolve into someone I didn’t even know at all; Selfish and hateful
He put me and my 16 year old and my 6 year old grandson out of his house in the middle of winter
I left with my dignity but I was hurt, shocked and angry
As I was emerging to be who I truly am the men in my life were repulsed by that
They did not want to see the strength of me as a woman but my weaknesses, Where they could pounce upon, dominate, regulate and control me
When I got put out, it challenged me to Build Back Better
A Better Me, creating a solid foundation; Unbreakable, unshakeable Faith of God and of me, within myself and Spiritual strength to the depths of my soul
When I got put out it was a push to me to “Go get the World,” I did..
As I was on my Journey towards healing and self-worth, I began to Love me and realize I did not and need anyone to complete me
Thank you for your Gift Courtland, You gave me the push to stand for myself and pursue my Dreams
I hadn’t spoken to Courtland since around September 2023, I called him and told him I was truck driving, something he used to do. Our conversation was pretty brief and short
He did not reveal any problems in this call to me
I found out last week that he died November 2023
He had been gone over a year and I didn’t know it cause I stopped calling him and eventually changed my number
Forgiveness will set you Free
I had already forgiven him but I called to thank him, he did me a huge Favor, he made me stand up for me and mines, when he put me out, he gave me that final push I needed to go ahead and depend on me
To go ahead and grab the World and GROW
Thank you Courtland, for putting me out even though we did nothing to deserve it, you were just tired of us
By you putting me out, it opened a Whole other World, a History and Herstory; a Part of Me: Africa
Fly High with the Angels King, remember I used to tell you I want you to see this when we GROW..You will,
I Love you Friend and you are so missed
When you think of someone leaving, you definitely do not come to mind, You were so full of Life; you had the Zest of Life
Some Goodbyes are left unsaid
Wow..
Courtland🕊️💫💞
www.GROWLoveLiftChange.org
God is Love
Love is the backbone of all religion
Sow Love, GROW Love all over the World
To drive out hate and make the World Great
Material things don’t mean anything, one day we shall Leave with nothing
We are Spirits having a Physical experience
Life is what you make it, make it Beautiful ✨💝
Sow Love here We GROW 💫💞
